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Hey there, Never thought of days would take us like this but these days are like the not so what to say its been 9 months coming back from home the Life is really not the bed of roses but  from planning a 25 Anni of my parents to Dancing like anythig in wedding to new years Eve to Kashmir trip and even my theatre and jobs the planning is what that is making the Reverse of what I actually not wanted it is so cruel to have this kind of Act God. To the Lockdown with Fear, negativity, Feeling lonely and a big Epidemic has taken over the world by a strom Right now I didnt Know about My New job My mumbai tour my B.Ed Exams it all seems so disappointed to me Its all making me nervous than and I was earlier I feel like in march  some pause button is pressed just to be more clear about it. I know I used to yell last year for my old movies,tiktoks way of proceed in life to show my fellowmates  school and college specially relatives and my long lost people that I am living the...

                                MOVING FORWARD When I decided  to move but I could not be able to do it because I was totally deep broken because of  my cellphone and its storage  everything was going away from my hand. I hated the people the functions and far away from my friends.I stopped  living being happy and enjoying. All of it was not that good I am just getting towards my goal of theatre and act only mu only dream and happy place  and now I wat my family and money but without any fault I lost my bag a big disaster in life. My life is quite good now but after new year which was not happy because from december to march 7, 8 mishappening that has occured in my family that was so worst and unhappy part of life.  but moving forward after loss of 15000 and 20000 salary deduction and fine o...

MY MOBILE PHONE  GETTING OUT OF REACH     So As  I was very very excited for my last uncles wedding that was the last wedding after which my generation is going to start  So with allt the pallozoos asking everyone getting stiched new suits new blouses jewellery  and my Garara fever is on and on. My life was at the the best running college market everyday going to tailor  shopping and having fun parlour for my getup everything was fab we were about to leave with our car but last moment plan changes  my dad was the happiest they left one day before the wedding  and went to the same  day  with all the tiredness rush and everything. I dont know how but  I lost my  bag all instructions by mom and my bro we were running all around and loat my BAG having my precious cellphone ,golden mascara, charger, my foreever21 lipbalm , my nude lipstick and my peach colour suit ,Minis Earring hoops golden pearl , mom shawl and mo...

             THE TRAGEDY In year 2017 I had decided to move to delhi to study and start my modelling carrer but intially preparing for many universities in delhi Idid not took admission and things kept breaking I got into merit list in meerut University and with less fees and everything I went into it thought how I would survive but everything was just so awesome and I am greatful to everything in life till date.  but then and there only I used to make tiktoks,watch old movies and dance and dreams of becoming a great actress nothing was bad till date except my grades in some subject that was hard for me at that point of time.  Never lost anything except a waterbottle , a scarf my lipbalm and a 500 rupee note with everything kept so precisely and accurately but you know nothing is as easy you see it. I always thought just to go away from there the hostel the friends the love and the environment but everyth...