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Hey everyone I am back again ,with new scandals,Troubles and most Importantly Exams which are going ON these days it can be from anything to Everything. These are giving me sweet and Bitter Kinda feeling for like I always tries out to be the Best but didnot work most of the time like these days it's a mixed feeling I wish I could not have my ambition for Life that I have from 5 years back to live Life on your own , Earn as much I can ,To travel every country ,to work ,to live and to help as by my Business .sometimes  I feel like I need a counsellor than I feel like it's Ok to be in the way iIhabdle my prob I need  learn and experience my Mistakes in life the only problem here with me .This point of time Iam really clueless don't know what to do and how I am filling exam forms ,not prepared ,class performance also ,love for my Business and acting too. I am lijelfrom class 12 I live that dream to became an actor a succesfulones as just because of my height Iditch my childho...

Hey diary , It's festive time hope you are having Fun all the way as I am having Mine .you k ow iIlearnt one thing very Happily that When life gives you Lemon deal with it because it's all about Life because  Life is how you deal with it .If you feel Bad it's that Bad but if you feel Good iysitthat much easy to understand the whole mantra is all about Happening.people comes in to your life ,goes,Fun happiness time is just so transient but now toh its it like not happening in any way because it has to be very zig zag in my case because the people,family,love is getting too far when it comes to happiness the way to deal is be the one of a kind move ahead do new work hard all I need is my family ,money . The vitality is real which is to be the best in my dream ,work everything that I owe can be in any case ,but requirements should be so much to live it to the fullest my life need a fresh start everytimeevmy mind blocks or sticks because itsitgetting me dizzy need a good bre...

Dear diary,                       How's everything ya it's been so amazing you know what I love you so so very much iIlove love love it,I am so much in this phase of being  the way I am ,it's so Hard that How to prepare one should for the future but the thing is I am in this phase of not knowing this world full of the stars and fire around . There are many times where I feel lost,unknown ,nowhere togoTevertging messed up aroubdathe whole thing is that ki I feel that Many times I am a Loser but most important is that life goes on and on this is when you need to be  very carefullabout your Life and it's so fantastic to think about my life sucks whenever and where ever I go,sometimes feel like leaving the world behind and going to heaven . the looks,grade,attractions,demotivation,compettion makes me feel alone but as iIthink of Mom Dad I wakeup get ready and prepared for the things like that  there around 150 tinestI f...

Hey Love as this word comes to our mind we felt our lover the loved ones as anyone who is so important to us that we share a Bond couldn't live without that person.Yes that's love but my definition is a little bit of practical kinda because I never felt it any way I started getting this when people hates me ignores me that's what hurts me the most. I know for some people itsiteasy to get a bond and start of with but for me it takes time once it builds I need so much of time and the appreciation from front side too. As my Mom is so much important to me I realise when  I realise this when I enter as teenager.she is my best friend my best enemy my soulmate shoppois partner kitchen partner my gossip buddy my travel diarymy mirror  my everything . I just say and she just let that happen so grateful and touchwood so much in love with her just because she just not give more appreciation as my critics only.Do in this way that way,waating time go there apply in that and things li...

Hello  people , I know it's been so long that  sitting around a corner  and thinking about myself that I usually do,but to let that happen here . I missed it but this busy train called Life is taking me all over that I am I feel it's been the 20 years with life and till now I couldn't understand what it wants it's so awful earlier back then I just desperately want myself my choices,my life kinda attitude .asa soon as I grow up it all changes in every month I feel like what's happening yr .See what I have received within these years is that life what I want is just so complement to what I get next day .This is all about bringing a change a good one for you may be. Though I want in my graduation is that like I am gonna finish it soon then Delhi, Theatre, classes, Job and my hard work no but it's does not happen . Even I left so many calls for my dream ,my life ,the new journey of what I clactually want. Strangest thing is when last year I decided to take a nice ...

Hey diary , I now we met after so long but it was so jectectic after so long time because I was so much and so very inhappu with the time I have right now it was so different time of my life that after my exam my sister decide to leave home for hostel . I love her care about her she is so close loving and special to me I miss her the most .as always I need her she is being the best person of my life in any place . My only and only love  she was I don't know I am so sad but quite happy for her choice too. I know how days passes my mom's is now all alone . I talked to her but she decided to leave in any way I miss you babe. My one and only I wish I could have stop her while exam not buyer her book . Not anything else I need it this time  God please give me more power so that I can be so much able to stand by my ma and family the job next year please aur any way to fulfill my dream this year is being the most tough time for me I need to prove ,I need to grow and because I want t...

Hey baby , I miss you so much like it's been so long now that I am chasing my dream to come true but it's not becoming the one i want too.this is like so bad for me yr I want to be the one but now what to do when your dreams are so high that you need to just come up with it I need help god either Delhi aur banglore , Mumbai aur any but need to train and work hard for my dream it been so late alredaa I need to god so me the path please.

Dear diary , You know  my life  yeah ,life i have been thinking here to write this  my thought since valentines day in my view day to spread love everywhere the day to love and to be loved from childhood to now its been 19 years of life . I love the way i am now ups and downs are so so many ,away from home,homesickness, this is so amazing that i am learning the bitter experience of life .from travelling 6 times in a months here there but now i have to seriously think of my future its high time ,need to live my dream to the fullest . My dream city politics,business,heroine, and so many to prove every one ,show them,and love them most important to make my family proud of me i am gonna do it ,#travel #dreams #explore no regret love all i gonna try everything  now . Do something unreal .

Dear diary,  Hey hows you hope  you are more n more better than me its so bad that i always treat you like my family . But actually you are a part of me . Whenever i am sad ,happy,guity,arrogant n even mixed like i was from  last 3,4 days i just come up to you you means alot to me the whole my emotions are just comprises you .my best part . Like you see before yesterday i just touched my luck from being a star ,my practice,dressup,going ,and posing,dreaming feeling proud n.assuming was just late n late of just 2 minute can you believe like i call myself a badluck person happened to me too. Lifes change everyone expects so much from everyone and the same i do,but ghe problem is it demands more and more i am so much bad to it. My life actually sucks and most imp is my teeth from 6 standard t now being the 27 half teeth suddenly everythings change now to no one is like  is suffer like same in 26 or 27 both the cases i was weak loser suffer felt depressed and everythin...

Dear diary ,                    Hey my alive source all good dont you know yesterday i miss you .where i just felt like  talking to someone because if you are not rich and so powerful  noone helps you. Only you and you can help yourself as you must understand that first help yourself physically or mentally. World is so mean i mean everyone. Its  so bad when you hear no from them   as i am kind of a person who do not like to  to go behind anyone. Its been a decade that girls are proving and are no lesser .one day i ll have money,ill prove myself, show them, betray them , Everyone is so jealous of your succes i dont know why ? But one day ill surly not waste my time and my parents money. You know sometimes its so depressing that i feel depress so bad yr its too bad .but i love god and i have full faith on him . I love you god just onky guide me . Show me right path and i love my family moreover anyone.

Hey bestie!                     Hows you  you may be good but please in case you dont know me i am in trouble dont you these days my stupid exams are going on the wackiest thing ever  i mean i hate it, for god sake after graduayion i dont wanna study more . Yesterday while writing todays exam ,i never expected  to feel like taking  admission in any univ in delhi to pursue linguistic aur travel and tour management . Feel like just tear that piece of shit and scream and crying like anything .I am so convinced that i am too bad  the schools were right ,and so does me i wanted to get that eduation but first is no ratta not exams but yesterday exam was baddiest of ever never thought of it i owe this one but see what happened i am so exahausted depreessed and moreover feel like doing suicide . I wanna die yr  wanna suicide yr ,its too bad yr so bad means so much bad. Its too annoying also .i didnot know god help...

Dear diary ,                       dont you know except you no one in this world is so good and happy as the way it  has to be  .I must tell you its just not me its the surrounding these days who is making me feel this way , The people in this world are here to just drop you down and down .Most importantly the thing is you must have the courage to fight against them .people here are so mean they just always make you feel that you are not one of them i hate this world  .Even more hate the people outthere this world has given me lots and lots of negativity and noone understands this thing we must understand that this world is full of stupidity .I must tell you i am not alone person .i love people very much as much as i love myself but when i got hurt by any person it really each day i am losing faith in people i dont know who is gonna love me  but everyone is so mean in whichever way they are really the one .Thi...