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Dear diary ,                       hey best friend you know what  i love you  always  that in this  whole  world i get to share my  thing only to you its been the bond of 8 years .That i fall in love with you ( in love with writing) oh god i love my life you know what  again because i love each day its full and full of  new new things my whole life is just 20 years  going and going in search of new peeps and new places . Okay so whats new about today is  This is my 4 months in this stupid city i hate the most koi ni i am engulfing it. As you know i wanna go delhi aur banglore fo mba aur mscphd but never mind this happens to me. Because this was my choice of going out from home but every time i came from home i regret the most  because i love mom,dad ,mini,d i love my home,city,and food. If i would be in delhi or other i might be happy even my dad too. Now toh he hate whenever ...

Yay i mean seriously yr , dear diary today i feel like i am top of the world.  Its a great feeling coming back on your own town seeing your childhood memories all back . I know today i woke up at that time i was having fever like hell . I was feeling like its impossible for me to give this Exam .If i think in deep i waited for this exam whole year 10 dec and here it is . o was literally awestruck that it came so soon  my whole fam ma pa sacrifices for completion and posting for form even my lil sister expend their money i being very  determined even rxam paper xeroxed wasted money but not stidied at that too level that i do generally ( oh god not 100% hated myself  want to clear it 4months  before anyhow any cost wanna crack but nowsee what happened poor me yr but whatever be the circumstances  i ll do best for next its do or die. Now ok aaj toh fever and cold but i wont do nexttime excuse s to let my life spoil. Oh god i would have done small bit of stud...

Dear diary , its 8 December 2017 and since past 1,1/2 week i havent studied anything of tifr or anything else , of Msc just wasting tom i 'lldo writing stuff,  reading,examsforms,exerciee,yoga,meditation, and have a schedule of it. Its so stupod i am doing nothing just not even studied of what is coming .just have to do it anyway. Its been so bad now i hate it yr, i do statiscs and english this time and mt dream will work on it too . My mascot and stupid college too i am gonna go there too yr .its so much hectic yr its too stupid . i hate it i ll do it now  anyway 2 times it is too much bad even 3 ,4 time iam done of it

Dear diary ,  I am on my way to step  out the world i always wanted to be life, man i am right now in the mid of my  career its been 3 months in this stupid city  i always want to leave this shit place i am so much fond of leaving this . God sometimes people    react to me  so politely,gently or either they just ignore me ,dont talk do not even ask . i know its my life story that i dont have any one besides me  my true friend or best friend  . The only issue i have is  i dont have any senior junior   relation nor any  relation ( nor i am interested till the best is yet to come ) alone and always alone . i dont know why people are so double faced hated me . so bad to me not like any one . being alone liking people not reacting ,not grouping not evebln attached to any of them . its so  making me feel lonely my whole. Life i was awaiting this moment to come like please i want to  get out of home but not here atleast .it...

Dear ,diary today is the saddest one i  dont know its because of whom that i a. Feeling so bad today sometimes i fell likd i need,a boy friend desperately  i bow, in front i have felt so so much being away from home being a girl is veey hard .  their are around 100000 eyes on you all the time ,from the way you speak to how you look everything is judged my all the way i inspiration is the only  myself . i feel so cursed sometimes i cursed myself only . My whole life rightnow is a mess doing masters in science,to exam of research and wanted tobe actress and now here at home aur bad college its so irritating. Require help.well  its been so bad day of mine buslate ,train late 3 ghNte,my 9 hours wasted in travel no food even the Tc then seat and lasted no food hungry  and auto differenced,different seat time wasted sp latealone and hanging from top to bottom  so so bad  late home no bf ,bus train got wrong and then  auto ,got hurt modi sir why so...

Dear diary ,                      Hey hows you my i know its more like miracle but yes ,i am happy this is been so long that iam talking to you my living buddy sharing each  happy wala even if its a wasted time with my loving ones. I am so grateful now to whatever god has given to me as a gift or a blessing .iam so thankful to him .My whole life revolves around my family thats the start and even the end .  This worlds best time i am spending right now . is now my whole world o love my present wherever i am and so as my parents do. All the love they carry while to the world to listen  that i am not a regratful person ia . happy whereever i am this is so much  for me. My life is now a classroom beyond  it teaches me that if whatever happening with your wish its good but if not even best.,because god is always by your side and has decided the best for you only believe in god and have Faith. My love my life a...

It was a very  beautiful time that i spent with each of my family member  and it was diwali holidays .iam glad that i got this beautiful  time that less people get to face. My each dau from start to last was worth remembering my continuous shopping,each material that i bought ,with mom wleach and every thing . i am  very much thankful to god  that my fam is so beautifully togethered that i get to. Close with each one of them . each time that till 2017 ends  like the only 20 years of my life i am so thankfull to god thsnk you enough i am too much in love with environment its been so surprisiny journey i need to go more and more its really so fortunate . as the my heart is where   the soul is  and that is near ti my Mom . i love family and my parents love love love

So exhausted ! Like the way i say to you its not that bad my life literally sucks as the majority world is  selfish. My world is  more like complement to fantasy. Its the only way i see to it. The whole world is so interesting seems to me. That it is 'not so good  the whole world seems to be the best  out of waste for me ok now its been so long  i am complaining the whole matter revolve around the same that i am so sick of living in cage . its the whole chance of not thinking  negative but what to do then ? Circumstances are just so oppose to me and i will fight  for the same and will work for it  ,and suceed into it.

She  started to cry when she opned her eyes found herself in the place where she felt  the most hated and uncomfortable place in the world .i miss you mom very badly wanna go home ,wanna eat my homefood .and started crying . which syage mom why me, i wanna be your side mum please.someone get her. It was very difficult to just   speak on that very moment so she choose to rolldown tears  as her inner voice. Its the most  unpleasant thing when you found none behind you i wanted you to be my one . but the only thing utter between us is the comfort zone she needs her family her clan .sometime you dont need anything except home. And home is where your mom the mom only and dearones  are some major factor .keeping it aside, its very difficult for me nowadays to cooperate whats happening around me . i wanna skip this time wanna escape from here . hard time going on food,study ,t .God please be the one  . have faith almightly  i am optistic now .

Its been so different journey from a home girl to right now here , away from home . life is so strange  having said that i wanna go out to study and to enjoy as much as i can felt like oh whats this . Right now is like oh man its not   that easy i need more strength and more and more efforts .It like i wanna go home very badly the whole time what my mind says i am so grateful  for what ever i am right now ,but wanna  go home kinda feeling is heading over me i am like please someone yr i wanna go home ,near my mom ,near my family,near my sibling my home .its not  here but anywhere i never thought of coming here  any way  .Destiny the power of fate is so much in power my whole life is  just going i way i never went but i am experiencing the happy me .if home near mom can be anything. But if no choices is given to you then you have to stuck, no man no family home . i am not gonna do this . i need to be get out of myzonar  if this is struggle th...

Dear diary,  With this to do and not to do environment. I found very much unrralitt that people relate to my world is full of unexpectations ,the most impprtant is my disappointment is  that just comes with bucket full of water in my life. Its the way how you carry yourself in unapproaprate . you dont even know that when you wake  up tomorrow. You  will be alive or not. The  matter you see it is drastic . so enjoy every  bit with love . love yourself and to your loved ones.

Dear diary, Sometimes its  like  what am i doing yr what is it its so much case of the stupidity likewise the way suppose to do my life is so talk of the town that no gossip can  could make sense to it . Its very much annoying never thought of not answering a y stupid questions my whole isib dilemma  right now . its like one step back . what i aspire to achieve fly hear  than this  doors seems to be  closed. Alll  in a one box .help me guys i now feels this be working in large. Scale rather than large scale.

Dear diary , Life has changed so far and so as i. I dont know what to deal and how to deal with a person . its a kind of a feeling that i am leaving every bit  .My whole  of the theory is not going as if i want to board . Bussiness m and the  polity is one hand living it to the full . My love is change towards the perceiveince about life and iya . its more like tgat waste my day very much . it become very side of you,  Hep yr  its ultimately  not possible so go ahead

Dear diary, Right now i m so much pissed off ceel like  shouting crom fhe rooftop but rejected to do so as my instincts are not allowing me its been so long that i am  just  doing nothing in this  busy land . Feel like  why me god ? Why yr me only there to be so much unopportunistic  always just a fate that knock at my door. As soon as i opened the door its s big silence no one out there is not  even thinking of me what i feel right its always and everytime my luck,destiny that  just screw me up. I am in the mid of an ocean trying to find out a boat near by me either i sink of just float . i. Know that everything happens for a good reason but every my batch time ,stagetime,prizetime is just ruined by anyone its so upsetting.i tell i felt like offo why me yr its so much irritating i am dont know what God has to give me i am just walking on a circle right please anyone help me show me the right path it's very much amising for me to be like this an...

Dear diary,       They say  there is always a key to success ,requires more and more hard word and determination . people are often so busy these days in just reviving  how much they can get more likes,followers,people talking and bla bla social stuff creating this all era around them this isn't very tuff to be in the same  scenarios where others pretend. Its not all about showbizz or Glamer  but its just tbe way ofthis hard work in ones field . considering all in one i just don't understand why is there any need for hard unusally its our passion,our instinct, our imagination and our way to be different from mob. As there has to be a mind without fear aand narrow minded walls . so passion never ask for hard work it requires a great zeal to deal the circumstances . No one can hurt  you unless you allow to do  .  All you must follow is your Heart  and follow dreams because trying is the only way to be  achiever  never gi...

Memories  happy times must be a habit so that people can revive the lessons learn't . My Almighty power comes   it.    It's very easy to scream from the rooftop but to hide problem and accept with the fact  is far more away.  Its very much annoying when you perform bad and even knows that but it disguist you when life gives you bucket full of  rejections and take away all the oppprtunity   from you . Feeling very much pissed of. My life is tough now but i am  butter can melt   with anything that  is so hard in way to  success . if. Many rejection  will come i will not be afraid ,i will fight back respectively to  every tuff situatin  and. Adverse problem and turn out to be a winner. 

While we are Young we must  be the bundle of that happiness which couldn't be bound to you. Spread the Love all around so,  each one by your side be full of lovely vibes and positivity .life is  full of all that new situation and shocking expectation ,its not about what you need you get, its like  god gives you more and more of it .Reality came to you when you really confront with life's truth.  Disappoint ment and happiness are two sides of a coin. The only time i felt heartbroken  was when my loved ones left me all alone in this world . But the fact is i have to face this you won't believe when people so much loving,caring and   best personality is lying under a piece of cloth .  gesture be 'oh God ! How could you be so mean to us . Felt like  lost my  daily part of life which was so precious. Well life is  uncertain any thing can happen anytime. The Ideal life is only and only when you feel from within the compassion, Love,respe...

Life is erotic if i say so,  may not be wrong in any way. Its  the toughtest time i am going through more than any pain.Parents being my strength and my weakness always pushed me ahead whether in any Field no matter what i choose they always besides me but if someone hurts knees dear ones hurts me the most . life is full of surprises and. New  things happening  all around  .but dark side is the Ones  who stood always look up to me for  a reason needs more than i  am today . if not in any field  whats your job then so,its always opportunity that knocks your door but only once but you get to prove yourself as a achiever a tale of success.  More you live ,you grow,you perceive. Love your parents  at least as much as you can ,because they are your reson of success  who helped you in your failure.

Well ! Time flies  its always the only constant thing ever . its very eye pleasing when everything around is so much wanting it started to be so much irritating when things doesn't work not because of what you want in life but also because you are not getting chance to prove yourself to the best . i must tell you it broke you from depth the power that inner soul is always trying to behold you at high . i found myself like every girl next door a box full of dreams and aspiration that need to be fullfill before the bell rings, yet not my desires  are eagerly waiting for a auspicious priority. Like any other sometimes i screwed myself but find ok done if this happens or that happens  my plan is on. But if  things are changing you are ruining your each and every bit. You know after 2 failures if you found happiness and success it means alot but if nextly not prepared taking for Granted many times you are fired. Life is testing you to compromise,adjust yo deal with whate...

Love everything when it works the best when you are feeling the best like in the same way. Different people with different experiences sometimes,the character,the likes dislikes or the influence is so strong to any one can hold so long.I am very fortunate eith this on going experiences  in life the learning is on . every next thing motivates me so much may my favourite thing or sometimes non favorite  one also .even though i love tha bond,relation portrait in 'Tubelight' whether a life or not i keep myself enthusiastic so that no one can push me back. Its my Mom the family the lovers the haters  are sometimes happens to be positive vibe i love the way people react to me good or bad beautifully or not but i love my each day of 19 years journey happiness, no regret, lovers ,maonly bff, sister thelove and pada😘😘 are reason of my success. Nobad just love,honesty,happyfacesand smiles,affection that is to be spread, my world -my life  . ibelieve my dreams #abp be one da...

When asked to a children ,   what you want to be one, Replies clearly a scientist, when he grows up  pursure studies , i wanted to do this that , A adult replied there are so many ups and downs people are surrounded all over by ohh like a dupatta ,  when asked to amiddle age he gave a simple answer a children free of problems  so this is how the people faces the problems.  And lovr it when too much 

Dear diary , Today as if  i found myself at  base of  world under the floor , just  now what i felt can' t be describe as sometimes  emotions works the Best . Yes i am taking everything so unserious is now what i found today feels so depressing i failed to qualify my exam in which i was too much assure i even  drumped  it everywhere ,never ever thought of it . Being straightforward i believe its no ones fault nowdays i m just freaking out so much even forgetting all my priority just dreaming all around . (wake up kindly to myself) please i just wasted 3000₹ on these exams and stupidity and not even qualify. Because most important part is i am just depended on my destiny N luck so stupidity . not giving 100% most important is i dont want to study more  just hate of it . i am done with everything i am so much disappointed to myself rightnow as i want to jump from top of the building  earlier i was juslike just try in this in that  atleast...

To my dear diary,  Believe me truth is what you really  feel & face with it . Life is not bed of Roses its just everyday a new Hurdle and level  waiting for you to trap in it. When you feel that kind of depression and Low  type trust me the best thing you do is just go to your favourite place, do you favourite work,laugh with yourself remembering your precious memory . Tell the world that you are not so short in front of problem . The only reason behind this is promptly we  can afford that but  think about them who  sleep without food daily.Think about  people who dont know what Smartphone is .Think about  those orphan children  who are even  unaware of  what a Birthday party is all about. Please speak always about your joys, happiness ,great deeds  that create not even others but you yourself  find  a great victory in being Happy all the Time. In life every nearby person is just  a best friend of ...

Dont know where to start but it is tobe. Sometimes i realises it's difficult  to  interpret the things according to you whenever, you want a new chapter you need a pure source of light .  it realises your that  its not the only you all have theame thing i think always  whats left is you ,your faith your simplicity . To get success  there is no alternate  than Hardwork . I believe its you who makes your destiny not those lines on your palm , because nothing can be done rather than you yourself   need to buk upp and if you dont you are the suffer. Heavy traffic  ,Big cars  in between those tricky sounds i found  a small witty boy around 6 standing  basket of flowers in his hand( beauty of nature)  even, in that sharp and charming sun trying to convience all with his innocent face but as always no one interested . I asked him " why don't you go to school ?  And  you 'll be surprised to know he told me. "Not daily b...