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 Dear diary, Health is Wealth you see,the health  is really Important  whether in the case of feelings or stress that make our Body full of nonfunctional. To talk  about things like  I have inferiority  is really  common and easy to talk because it's normal to feel low but you make it a proper way is not the thing you should  be it's ok yo feel but like I always been called fatso I am not it's my short and broad shoulder body type that make me look so, the short height ,perfect face ,nose were things I do have complex on but I dont  take that way because it is totally up to me to feel it that way or not. To be happy, healthy and disease free is all you require as mind with noise is Impossible. Just the noise and have faith in you so that you can work in it and be free from  work stress,family stress,back pain,migraine,indigestion and junk food are some majority of problem indications.

 Dear diary, As you can see the feeling these days mine are about the way the whole 2020 has sometimes I feel like it's a lesson then I feel like I missed this year like my every year as my life is stuck from last 3 years as my focus was only to go Delhi then to Mumbai and work bloody hard to work for the love I had to WIN MISS INDIA THEN I REALISES I AM ONLY 5FEET 1 INCH It feels like next to impossible  if I may say so the life is beyond everything I see and achieve I trying really hard to get into it and believe that I am not the good height it requires 5 inches more to be in the way anyone can see me. Deeply downed and  felt bad by the fact that I have nothing to do now and how I am going to coop up with I dont even know that as well.I always dreamt and work hard to level up my height and and make my body look attractive but what what is called as the way to be. So there started my acting career I work bloody hard to be in the way I am today  because  no new...

 Dear diary, Hello hello it's really very different feeling that Sitting down here feeling very different  from what you expected to feel as I see going towards the struggle of life it's really a juggling stage fpnt even understand what to do and where to do when 60 % of the population  of your batch is married on the peak of making a career and yourself worth this world people were getting married  I literally have no idea like where to start with because its really  very hard now yo understand what is this situation going On these days the new strain of Corona has already taken on this world and now the other people are too in panic . Its really very hard to believe  and Identify  that Whst is gonna happen next it's really very very hard to understand and to welcome things very easily when nothing is easy. Okay so when people write getting married our family is and was silent  now and then it's really very very hard to understand  the effec...

 As I grew up I have always seen that ky family is broken and people are together when only it is required I always wanted To make my family proud hustling here and there it's always my way to see things I feel If I am a doctor or any profession that earns the most is making the family together and forever but not in our case mt fakily totally broke af Nobody loves anyone none is so happy as they not not internally for any other person as it seems like . I kinda feel I am lucky to have my Sister  and Mom. I always felt that my family cousin we are all happy suppy and fun. But the thing is that bachpan se aab tak it's a competition  and race that kept me going without enjoying things like  The way I speak as a child beauty Standards being the best toys, gadgets and coming 1 in my class to be able to match all this I keep on hustling every day. To like my older cousin who in pic seems like loves me happy with me looking up to her to be a poised,powerful,rich and demand...

 Dear diary, So since childhood I always wanted to be a Neuroligist and then I realise its really very big amount of money and studies required to be a doctor a trained,best and the stand out job. To showcase to have money respect and reputation as well by watching the Doctors and the nurses all I feel to even YOU MUST HAVE A BIG DEGREE LIKE MBBS not the nursing OR A MBA  from a renowned places I know there are alot of jobs but being a professor  in Medical field or to have a ultimate  success is really important  because EITHER YOU MUST HAVE  EDUCATION OR DOCTOR OR YOUR BUSINESSES  TO OPEN A COLLEGE AND HAVE GREAT RESPECT FOR LIFE ALSO THE the politics and entrepreneur are some part of it. The Life is really good if you You HAVE POWER,FAMEAND MONEY  the best to be in a field to enjoy& relate the best you can.Ota>Actor>Nutritionist Abroad>Business Professor in Medical College.

 Dear diary, I never thought that  I will  decide One day to go for defence services  and give my everything into it. Because it was really tragic When  I decided to have a time that only I have 2 years to prep I have wasted18-22 (5 years )of my life to get in it as I did not decide my Acting and Nutritionist  Carrer is going way more strong headed to become a actor then  business buddy because I love to do it.Power,money and Fame Happiness is the  key to everything . As in my head my life is going around it. It's really a very very good approach  to think in this way .Money can buy my hotel,school,restaurant  and College.  The life is really juggling into me and it's very very  hectic now  to live in it . But i gave exam got some confidence  and try to achieve for next for sure accidentally decided to meet coaching and calling done by me  everytime it's really a bad approach  to think this way and have it. ...

 Hey diary,  I have not even thought that years passing by are different  that I need to learn and get to know new things each day. The people I have now are different from  yesterday because The life is really different  now The  2019 was very very beautiful  as I compared with this year. I know The first not at all ,very first job salary was very bad And not at all that good but I thoroughly enjoyed the process and the first I had the 8 months with my love APPI was so beautiful and mesmerizing  that I got to learn new things everyday and eating momos,love,dance,ghoststories,loveaffairs were our topic the bonding and love is really irreplaceable to anything in this world because it.To the student to behind me student to everything in life My happy place is everything to me and the happiness I know some bad and bitter days were there but I had a blast those 8 months were beautifully  learned saree session,me at the best I can ,the best beauti...

 Hey diary, Its is for the people like me it's really been a while that I am just wasting my total time from 2019-2020 the 2 year of my life as I say my 21 and 22 is going like a hell. I know I am not wealthy rich or not businessman or a politician not even I have the  The things like the land,property or any shop or anything All I have is just me and just everything ours Its is really gaming changing very annoying sometimes that how things work I am so annoyed to myself just only myself That I keep on not upgrading my things in life. Because I always wanted to be an Actress entrepreneur travel the world and I am stuck here at home doing really that I hated The most  Not  training or theatres I am being trained just YouTube that I need to really do my life us stuck in between  as my Aim is  to travel be famous to let others know my life my aim my prospective of living life the goal that I have and my way to set the world so that I can have my legacy of doin...

 Dear diary, I have been very busy with the lifestyle and its prons and cons this life is taking thing as storm sharing the most important part that Icant believe I could have shared with anyone other than you. So my equation  with my mom is always very like sweet and spicy from childhood she used to scold me every now and then with now like everything . My love and world was she only .as the time changes my schooling was affected very often and I have affection and love for someone in my life a year of love was broken just to proof my parents that I am not worthless.I seeped,cried,shouted and got angry we used to have an arguement  at that time and I know she hate me but I don't know why I always have a very very soft corner forget in life. Things changed I proved sedinot went to  receive  my trophy as I won And became the topper of my stream in my little downs and ups she was there I feel to feed me ,to scold me,to buy me things only As there was a point she w...

QUARANTINE DIARIES (DAY-115) THE HOSTEL LIFE So it is all how you love the life that you have now and earlier its been a beautiful time that I have spent all in my Hostel Life it becomes really difficult to have an expereince like that else where so The most Important is that Last year on 10 july I came back to my Home since then I just went for like on 2 December2019 and also on  meerut in february after that though the life i missed i lost on my Mobilephone is when i lost my bag  as whoesoever mistake as I am so much fond of my my memories which was from May to November of about 7months on my phone as my most important memories I had a severe pain of all of that my Life will be the best If i could not have lost it. The Fine i gave 6K,the Salarycut 10k,12K and my precious are gone with it .it was surreal for to copeup with it as i find it really difficult till now. I might feel if one day in the times o COVID19 where I cannot go and even search my loving things are lost and I...

SteadySecretdiary: QUARANTINE DIARIES (DAY-103)The 1 July SceneDear D... : QUARANTINE DIARIES (DAY-103)  The 1 July Scene Dear Diary,   The Quarantine might make me a better cook because its always very hard to have it all including internet but its really very  not so easy to learn other than home. "As wisely said there no better place like home". Its really hard to understand that the life is really not bed of Roses but this quarantine is making it even more difficult. So Ease the Difficulty I decided to be prepare  to make it as a teacher to earn at home but things changed and so I decide to register myself, within few hour I got a call and  explaining each and everything about the Teacher they were offering 50k unreal on the job and inside Brochue after I read It was written as 10k moving forward she told me to be prepare with the WiFi and techincal call has to work. So then I got a call at 1PM and ready with it. Then I told to arrange in the evenin...

QUARANTINE DIARIES (DAY-103) The 1 July Scene Dear Diary, The Quarantine might make me a better cook because its always very hard to have it all including internet but its really very  not so easy to learn other than home. "As wisely said there no better place like home". Its really hard to understand that the life is really not bed of Roses but this quarantine is making it even more difficult. So Ease the Difficulty I decided to be prepare  to make it as a teacher to earn at home but things changed and so I decide to register myself, within few hour I got a call and  explaining each and everything about the Teacher they were offering 50k unreal on the job and inside Brochue after I read It was written as 10k moving forward she told me to be prepare with the WiFi and techincal call has to work. So then I got a call at 1PM and ready with it. Then I told to arrange in the evening So, nextly  I called him up in the evening around 6pm then there are some of the thin...

QUARANTINE DIARIES (DAY-95) THE LOCK-DOWN BIRTHDAY EDITION (23JUNE2020) Dear Diary, I feel lucky and blessed to be surrounded by the Best people and its always the Best when I have people who are like me I love having the best time Time of my life 2 days ago. The Life is not as we ask for always for I have a lot of things happening this lock-down I mean I  don't have the best things to do in life but I do have the worst of things to not ask for  might be my friends are good it looks so happening but something that I always go through are so so many I might feel so happy. So  Long story as I love my Family I want my Family to come to me and with each one dadi, chachu and chachi didnot ever they came and their gift are too long too.I also been this Bad and feeling this Worst becuse my 3 cousins didnot even came and not even they gifted my very trying to be beloved buaji too was feeling uncomfortable not even responded or gave any gift  to me so this waste my #3Gifts pe...

SteadySecretdiary: QUARANTINE DIARIES  (DAY-93) Hey diary ,  You know... : QUARANTINE DIARIES  (DAY-93)   Hey diary ,  You know what why I am saying Hey because dear is not the vibe today my heart is too much happy because so many reasons in one place my heart is melting I feel like jumping from the Cloud YES ToDaY  21JUNE2020 is considered the one of the bestest day of my lockdown of 93days . I went  to meet my grand ma and she is very happy to see me because earlier I was thinking to meet her since 1 months and  now I met her the family chachu had great 4 hours spend with them their LOVE,CARE AND  SENTIMENTS are better than any satisfaction in the word my whole  love for the family driven people is taking me into it.My Family has my dadii whom I Love the Most and also my Chachu who is not less than any lover for me.So  other than my sibling and Mom and Dad. So I met my daadi who loves me from the corner and ...

SteadySecretdiary: QUARANTINE DIARIES  (DAY-93) Hey diary ,  You know... : QUARANTINE DIARIES  (DAY-93)  This Quarantine  is the now feels like expressing my life to it's full extent because The way I see it earlier was very lame. But now I can learn and be a brave girl to reach to a positive side of it. The Life after 2 December  I thought would be so bad for me but now the only thing I feel is sometimes blessed and might be stressed I feel our parents are like the neutral people they love cry easily and hate more easily  I can live this life but becomes shitty I have learned is to be patience My whole scenario of my face being on Films and travel earn money and make my parents and myself proud it's very very amusing also very strange but More often missing last year very very badly because it was my favourite  and I enjoyed it alot. Feels like the hostel,the food and the life comes back again please and we live it  it wa...

QUARANTINE DIARIES  (DAY-93)  Hey diary ,  You know what why I am saying Hey because dear is not the vibe today my heart is too much happy because so many reasons in one place my heart is melting I feel like jumping from the Cloud YES ToDaY  21JUNE2020 is considered the one of the bestest day of my lockdown of 93days . I went  to meet my grand ma and she is very happy to see me because earlier I was thinking to meet her since 1 months and  now I met her the family chachu had great 4 hours spend with them their LOVE,CARE AND  SENTIMENTS are better than any satisfaction in the word my whole  love for the family driven people is taking me into it.My Family has my dadii whom I Love the Most and also my Chachu who is not less than any lover for me.So  other than my sibling and Mom and Dad. So I met my daadi who loves me from the corner and saw me lovingly then she came hug me and loved me after that came chachi lovingly she made ma...

Dear Diary, This Quarantine  is the now feels like expressing my life to it's full extent because The way I see it earlier was very lame. But now I can learn and be a brave girl to reach to a positive side of it. The Life after 2 December  I thought would be so bad for me but now the only thing I feel is sometimes blessed and might be stressed I feel our parents are like the neutral people they love cry easily and hate more easily  I can live this life but becomes shitty I have learned is to be patience My whole scenario of my face being on Films and travel earn money and make my parents and myself proud it's very very amusing also very strange but More often missing last year very very badly because it was my favourite  and I enjoyed it alot. Feels like the hostel,the food and the life comes back again please and we live it  it was very very living time I spent. Si I way to see negative Always try to be patience and stick to positivity as it brings  good t...

                                        QUARANTINE SERIES "THE  FAMILY WHO EATS TOGETHER STAYS TOGETHER EATS TOGETHER IS THE BEST" So Another day where I feel like to go out and enjoy the beautiful nature I am so happy with and love spending time with. Today situation is not the way people want to be. As The situation is not appropriate I feel sometimes terribly happy or terrible sad or mid way situation can be just being not so good with the situation. the excitement level go to an another level when I see Nature today is at its best . Even though If I talk about yesterday It was fun We had great time I loved How our Family comes together for my brothers Birthday party and Had so so much Fun I feel that the scenerio is really Cool. My Dadi.My cousin that we often meet togeth...

                                                         QUARANTINE SERIES "THE  FAMILY WHO EATS TOGETHER STAYS TOGETHER EATS TOGETHER IS THE BEST" So Another day where I feel like to go out and enjoy the beautiful nature I am so happy with and love spending time with. Today situation is not the way people want to be. As The situation is not appropriate I feel sometimes terribly happy or terrible sad or mid way situation can be just being not so good with the situation. the excitement level go to an another level when I see Nature today is at its best . Even though If I talk about yesterday It was fun We had great time I loved How our Family comes together for my brothers Birthday party and Had so so much ...

Hey Diary, These 60 days of my life are not the best days of my life  each and every day I am working Hard to just a value of me nothing in life seems to be approachable not even in my life anything that I am doing is working  these days everything looks very uneasy. Looks like my family has backstapped me for many reasons since my childhood nothing good is happening l5 days she is not life is so unsorted I need to have a charge of myself whatever I do.I don't know but this lockdown is showing me the worst situation I am so done with it my life really sucks things are not working accordingly.In my 22 years of this Life I have now Known to be as the best year that is going on .In my whole life I fought with my mom n number of times like several times with only listening her aspects and her way of doing things on me but this time its been 5 days she is not talking to me always worst talking bad arguments and bad thought that are ruining my life theses days she n...

Hey Diary, These 60 days of my life are not the best days of my life  each and every day I am working Hard to just a value of me nothing in life seems to be approachable not even in my life anything that I am doing is working  these days everything looks very uneasy. Looks like my family has backstapped me for many reasons since my childhood nothing good is happening l5 days she is not life is so unsorted I need to have a charge of myself whatever I do.I don't know but this lockdown is showing me the worst situation I am so done with it my life really sucks things are not working accordingly.In my 22 years of this Life I have now Known to be as the best year that is going on .In my whole life I fought with my mom n number of times like several times with only listening her aspects and her way of doing things on me but this time its been 5 days she is not talking to me always worst talking bad arguments and bad thought that are ruining my life theses days she never understands ...

Quarantine Series "Whatever happens happens for a good reason" the most wisely repeated  line which  might have healed many situation. So dealing with this pandemic is very difficult theses days because when you see a so much happening around and negativity keeps now make you feels so bad, even when I wanted to be positive the family makes something or the other like to be bad at worst situations. The good part are somany but  bad parts are equalising each and every day. Though Man is an social Animal and its impossible to cut off and just be present virtually. I am feeling so so so disguisting theses days as I miss my phone also I have to do too many things and My mind is like taking me into bad world and to fight with my loved ones. I know I heard this thing very accurately that Today time is not good People are always good and were always too good to me and to all. I feel seeing other sometimes makes me feel intimidated and its really very bad somtimes I ...

SteadySecretdiary: quarantine series :                           QUARANTINE SERIES The most talk about is schedule these days is all messed up and I am so annoyed by it. He time sometime its like to laze out, but then an Timetable is made and no one now  appreciate the fact that started doing so many new things and  noone cares even my mom and dad. So I changed and so so many late night bad health days and very bad thoughts everytime. If I needed now a break since July my project time and my busy life with exams I came back to home fortunately got busy myself and started  earning now my great desire which never came true and nothing happened to be true unless some of the things and some was parts involved in it. The important thing that happened in to my homechores the long holidays given by earth to us  and so parts were like very very...

                              QUARANTINE SERIES The most talk about is schedule these days is all messed up and I am so annoyed by it. He time sometime its like to laze out, but then an Timetable is made and no one now  appreciate the fact that started doing so many new things and  noone cares even my mom and dad. So I changed and so so many late night bad health days and very bad thoughts everytime. If I needed now a break since July my project time and my busy life with exams I came back to home fortunately got busy myself and started  earning now my great desire which never came true and nothing happened to be true unless some of the things and some was parts involved in it. The important thing that happened in to my homechores the long holidays given by earth to us  and so parts were like very very  tr...

                                     Quarantine Series "Whatever happens happens for a good reason" the most wisely repeated  line which  might have healed many situation. So dealing with this pandemic is very difficult theses days because when you see a so much happening around and negativity keeps now make you feels so bad, even when I wanted to be positive the family makes something or the other like to be bad at worst situations. The good part are somany but  bad parts are equalising each and every day. Though Man is an social Animal and its impossible to cut off and just be present virtually. I am feeling so so so disguisting theses days as I miss my phone also I have to do too many things and My mind is like taking me into bad world and to fight with my loved ones. I know I heard t...

SteadySecretdiary: quarantine series :                                QUARANTINE SERIES   Hey Diary, Its been a Grilling and grooming session   because the pandemic that has come to our beautiful livehood day to day life that has changed diversily now. So, From my 14 March 2020 to now its been the 45 days journey now that I am living now. Initially it was not hard feel like vacation that felt get bored but I am amazed by myself that I am enjoying it all together do you know how ? Let me just tell you because after my 12 boards i was never been so homely person being on home all the timeIt was last time I had 4 months holidays from March Exams to July. My life now has changed from in 21 years now because I have heard so many times that your Taste changes with time. Oh but the Time which is so uncool  t...