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 Dear diary, Its 1 Feb of 2021 what else one can expect that 1 month is gone by Air here and now what to do ? I came back to bareilly on 5 july 2019 and now its 1 year 6month and just I do not have a handsome amount to prepare for as My not so good B.ed and my 50 K salary saving in these times is just now completed with me what else one can expect my very dear sister who loves me alot said I HOPE I GET TO SEE MY LIGHT THIS YEAR LIKE MY ACTUAL CALLING FOR WHAT I AM EXACTLY DOING  FOR LIFE FOR PASSION FOR LOVE AND FOR LIVING THIS IS WHAT I EXPECT FROM MYSELF THIS THIS TEAR AFTER THIS 1 MONTH OF  OTA PREP AND EXAM ALL I WANT IS TO HAVE A A AUDITION IN LUCKNOW TO HO AND WORKSHOPS TO ATREND AND WORK BLOODY HARD TO GET MY DREAM COMES TRUEI WILL NOT WASTETHIS YEARFOR 40K JOB OR A MONEY TO GET THIS YEAR JUST TOTAL  PURE DEDICATION TO STOP MYNIGHTMARE AND LIVE MY ACTUAL DREAMS AND MAKE THEM TRUE TO GOD HELP AND SUPPORT WILL MAKE IT ANY HOW THIS YEAR AND GO  FOR IT

 Dear diary, Hey hello As I walk to the new year 2021 I have been watching people who are my age and people know them how to do that I dont know that what do I do ? Being in lockdown  for like 8 months it's really a Big one not even kidding I need to do . I was home from last 2 years and what to do is a really a big task I have been learning yes Contained around 55K but need more Lakh in my Bank balance what to do ?what to do ? It's really a task to not be at home now,to work,outside earn more around 40k or live,travel and make a career and go to your calling as soon as possible.  The Lockdown  period was Fab I had seen Ramayan  to Mahabharat  to epics and learnt alot but somehow diverted to OTA due to respect,proud,dignity officers and The money As my family need a support  money and a person in the Family. It's really a task How to managed yourself  to the utmost level . My life was Amazing learnt spent alot and lived alot but need to make it al...

 Dear diary, Today was a worst day As I can believe in my classes are more miss my Microbiology  days. My classes are more ,The exam for which I have been preparing for from November  to January now 1 months quite a mehnet a going nowhere because my aim is getting degraded as my Ota is not prepared,Missed my bestfriends  birthday  party ,my classes are increased a lot of pressure  is given as well. My Practise and more of the time that must be given to ota is not going the way it is.

 Hey diary, I might be always very kinda of confused person but as I am today its just the phase of being 22 or exact as 23 which is taking me in this diverted path as because Now being a masters and a professional  Teacher with a lot of Hard work to put in whether as I was working last year as on 10K to just in the case having food,fun and friend all was love of 8 months to be precise now 2 and half months old in this College having Vaishali Many B but a focused set and totally free I am to be doing anything here as I was meant to do because as I entered I have a exam and a 2 month focus Nov dec and even jan to finish it but need to do it any how till 20 any how God help I need to crack of else my only calling to lucknow,Audition,Delhi Mumbai prepare for Acting and makes me prepare my thing. As if now The familybpressure to be settle,have a secure  50K government job then to a settle prrdon and then to prepare or fir a professor  or a job any this sort  orelse ...

 Dear diary, It's really Important  to be healthy and as well as working towards the  goal because the the health is the origin to physical and mental state being happy and healthy is really important  to ones life . Be it doing your favorite  work,cooking something,doing business,meeting new people and having a good time is very Important   for new people to hang on. It's really very very hard last time but 2021 can be a good one as one can think about it very easily.The way a person  work and  behave is the only way to be treated Life is really hard to be in one place,one city sticking to  few people's only.  To explore to love and to push you comfort boundaries  with the 2021 achievements  is only thing to be done need to need to need to it's very Important  because its is really very very important.  To have a business or entrepreneur or might  a startup is all you need to do . Establishing yourself in t...

 Dear diary,  You know na the monotonous  like is not the way I want it to happen excepting The fact that Ihave to  less money,work hard and big dreams now what to do??? It is the biggest question  in the world  we need to find it's really a bad bad idea because life is not a bed of roses we need to work work work not stop to get it any how   Also because being from  change the scenario from middle, to get things back ,power,happy family,proud parents and big money is my only wish to achieve. Sometime life makes a void which is so deep that made a huge impact on the simple life and to make it worth while. From 2020 lockdown my life changed in more than many ways like emotional,intellectually,physically  anx mostly I know my priority myself my best things to bs followed.  I know now I need a  vacay very badly . Because money is only way to cure expenses and a brand. Aldo life must be authentic is so true. 

 Dear diary, I might be a week late to wish you a new year may be happy or not dont know but for sure it's gonna be better than ever as we evolve and grow things grow as well. Like the way people say time and time wait for none my life is so busy we are striving each and every day to just achieve our goal running and ridding its really a role coaster ride I must say  last year resolution  just went away like money eating,going out ,abroad,vacay,a great job but nothing sort of workout for 2021 I will give my everything  to be havd a lakh bank balance, a car, a property and a settle  job and vacay will try to achieve  as much as possible  for me its  really  really sad to hear when you dreams die the going to Mumbai  and Hyderabad is already  in adue state. It's really need to work any how darling any how ? My distraction  to get ready for my dream to come true like OTA is boys and Acting field which I really die for how to do an...