Dear diary ,  I am on my way to step  out the world i always wanted to be life, man i am right now in the mid of my  career its been 3 months in this stupid city  i always want to leave this shit place i am so much fond of leaving this . God sometimes people    react to me  so politely,gently or either they just ignore me ,dont talk do not even ask . i know its my life story that i dont have any one besides me  my true friend or best friend  . The only issue i have is  i dont have any senior junior   relation nor any  relation ( nor i am interested till the best is yet to come ) alone and always alone . i dont know why people are so double faced hated me . so bad to me not like any one . being alone liking people not reacting ,not grouping not evebln attached to any of them . its so  making me feel lonely my whole. Life i was awaiting this moment to come like please i want to  get out of home but not here atleast .its high time i don't wanna study anymore just want to pursue my dream of being an actor i dont know it requires more and more but i need my mom besides me everytime to support me as if i fall apart i require any person very badly by side . now this time i want to have friends other than hostel but no one is there to be with although i dont need more but still in case  , yes its more like i am uhappy or yelling in life but i want a pure stability in life from any one yr being alone is so tuff require much more of it my life is like no friends journey but all i want is mom you. I know i miss home very badly wherever i go in case  but most importantly my this journey is just started of dealing with the stupid person as much as i can  go beyond limits but only thing i requie is constant support god it gonna be so tuff. # thistime hard times more  people to love but somewhere or the other i choose this life  to be mine people use me  helpme, being so nice to me ( fake world ) i must say  the beautiful i have till yet are few i need the real  and no people koi ni i  can be alone no person i need this world judge  you always you have to be  a constant milestone to yourself  i need my time me time  . i dont need anyone . i am so done my family the only best friend and my constant support . 

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