QUARANTINE DIARIES (DAY-95)

THE LOCK-DOWN BIRTHDAY EDITION (23JUNE2020)

Dear Diary,

I feel lucky and blessed to be surrounded by the Best people and its always the Best when I have people who are like me I love having the best time Time of my life 2 days ago. The Life is not as we ask for always for I have a lot of things happening this lock-down I mean I  don't have the best things to do in life but I do have the worst of things to not ask for  might be my friends are good it looks so happening but something that I always go through are so so many I might feel so happy.

So  Long story as I love my Family I want my Family to come to me and with each one dadi, chachu and chachi didnot ever they came and their gift are too long too.I also been this Bad and feeling this Worst becuse my 3 cousins didnot even came and not even they gifted my very trying to be beloved buaji too was feeling uncomfortable not even responded or gave any gift  to me so this waste my #3Gifts people in front of me Ignore me too.

I had planned so many things to go here and there but due to lockdown  I thought i would have a Home Party,Dance,Dinner and my Gifts also one thing more I didnot receive any gift and wasted my 23 June 2020 in which now I am 23 years old also I am doing nothing wasted 1000 rupees on me.If you are home its the worst time one can ask for  I AM NOT HERE FOR MY SORROW AQND SAD STORY OF LIFE but it becomes the same way my life is bad without my family knowbody loves me now also I LOVE EVERYONE AND WANT TO BE TOGETHER LOVING EACHOTHER  TAKING FIRST STEP WITH ALL.I am more Expected one now this is so bad to be think of anything .
In this 22 Years I have learned one thing never be dependent on anyone LOVE yourself ,
Dont Expect because NOBODY CARES UNLESS YOU ARE RICH,POWERFUL OR BEAUTIFUL.

The Life without these things is  a total Waste Now I take this VOW ,NOT THIS FAMILY, NOT MOM MY MOM who always thinks of saving money and not having relation to anyone so selfish NOT CAKES AND NOT  EVEN GIFTS CAN MAKES ME HAPPY THE WAY  ANYBODY ELSE LOVES MAKES ME.

THIS Year was bad as no one with  came gifts and  or wished me taking the selfish means of  their Bad Health.So concluding me bitter emotions today .

Plans and Plots

So I  was planning to decor my Bday wall,Cake and myself but  didn't receive any gift Nobody acme to me I know I am not that Important person But I want to be that way.I want to be alone like I was in 2018 Exams where I ate pastry and made my Bday by myself but then I have the Best people in this World to Have to be happy with them Life really sucks now.Everyone is selfish in this world.Nobody wants to celebrate  it so i did it by myself and spent money.I arrange everyone's Bday with excitement Including my Mom,Dads,Sisters but noones loves me .

I love everyone  and want to be good to everyone than this kinda things happens.So I want to cry on for being Born because I want to create make and work or think about my feeling or what I felt to be is love  and only LOVE.

HATE THIS HATERED OF THIS WORLD WHERE EVERYONE IS HATING AND EGOING.

I WOULD RATHER DIE THAN BEING IN PEOPLE FULL OF HATE AND BAD WORLD.

The most important thing is no friend of gift can takes me unhappy but only and only my family does so this is really hard for me so hard.One thing Important. The way I love my Family earlier is not anymore my Mom,Daddy or my Sister they are now not Happy to my Birthday My heart cries writing this but I am feeling this situation so very much. No one to share expect  dear Blog and my love for writing only some of these fact that are making me  Anxious these days,I know this is not gonna come back these times and this day but not every family  parents and family became as lovely as others in Lock down

#Bad-birthday #Bad birthday

I made all the arrangement by myself  my each and everything the Gifts the  ideas and my expectations all wasted but my last will is i will not love my friends and family who hates me alot and  stood up bymyself  I love myself.








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