A Gloomy Day

 Hey diary,

I might be always very kinda of confused person but as I am today its just the phase of being 22 or exact as 23 which is taking me in this diverted path as because Now being a masters and a professional  Teacher with a lot of Hard work to put in whether as I was working last year as on 10K to just in the case having food,fun and friend all was love of 8 months to be precise now 2 and half months old in this College having Vaishali Many B but a focused set and totally free I am to be doing anything here as I was meant to do because as I entered I have a exam and a 2 month focus Nov dec and even jan to finish it but need to do it any how till 20 any how God help I need to crack of else my only calling to lucknow,Audition,Delhi Mumbai prepare for Acting and makes me prepare my thing.

As if now The familybpressure to be settle,have a secure  50K government job then to a settle prrdon and then to prepare or fir a professor  or a job any this sort  orelse their pressure  on marriage as I think kitty and samreen are may be blessed to have a family who doesn't pressurize. 

As my dreams are crushing in all of this My business  invest,A flat,a car of my own a job whether it's my Acting or a nutritionist a business one but need money and fame yo be powerful  in this world that we live in which suppressive us.

It's really really annoying  I need to go out Hyderabad  or mumbai to setup myself and search go with a flight ,study a degree from Abroad God help me 

I know my Miss India dream is because of height,now  acting cannot be until someone  makes me his slave it's just that I am in the stage of searching people who understand  my emotion literally  understand  my heart and my heart breaks.

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