3October2022

 Dear Diary,

I don’t know what day is today but I just wanted to let you know that I am not feeling good today I don’t know bye and have every time Navratri Comes I don’t know bye there is Allah Teri is a kind of a setback or I would say I’m always I have this vision of crime one time I am just crying I don’t wanna have for any of the reason of the stupidest of the reason or maybe the good of the reason I don’t know what happens all the time in Navratri Holi 2020 a fort with my mom like I never be on time for Pooja never be like balance and not able to balance Idhar Aaya woke up at seven or eight Enthanu also I’m late to my college to my work to my Iruva city to my workplace anyway and I do exercise Pooja and book read newspaper is that with and I’m not able to balance it to Mala to new word how it happens all the time that I really just keep it there here in their idol Vai Vai Vai literally very deep down where is myself I don’t know why am like this and very worst pet kind of a person that all the time I am I really feel that I don’t know I am havamana deal with a Sankara do all these things but it is really really important I don’t know how I buy big down first on the last day Navratri may be if I am like I had Vaje fasting elected to 3 times in my life of 25 years I don’t know have bye but it always feel like they somewhere or the other the food they travelled Puja or anything like that I sort of a have a very bad my dad on Vai Vai Vai it’s really pissed me off all the time and gas God please give me that power don’t know how people have this balance work life balance they get their personal time they get their public time they get their time for family they K they time for work be a nice person I am really trying to be that person making a poly in the morning having a family time going to work on time working really hard like really wanting to do my best but 34 times it is happened that I am late I’m not able to do the puja I’m not able to do the exercise I am late asleep and I am late waking up I don’t know via how I am going to make this balance but I really wanted to from tomorrow I will for sure want to make this change and want to others work life balance but yes I really too 

Times woke up and feel like that I don’t know Hao I’m going to function like I am here are some of the things for myself and then all each and every day I am getting a lot of criticism from my mom most of the time from family us at the time and most of the time in workplace Kobe late I don’t know why this this is the only thing that happens with me and I am really really really late I don’t know bye Badan I really want to be that work life balance percent but when I wake up I didn’t want to be somewhere else living my life alone and going for research things like that I really and always since childhood I wanted to become an actress always and always were really wanted to audition for that get pissed off with that I really want rejections Arul want to grow I really want selection selection selection all the time thank you thank you thank you universe I am really grateful that I am here I have some amount of money but really I want to be doing things for myself Lavi and just try it out otherwise I’ll be preparing for UPSC anyhow because I want to prestige money job I don’t want any job title and in that I’m not able to give any education money abroad travel or any of the luxury away from my children’s or the coming generation that I have seen I am really satisfied with what I have Andril grateful for that grateful thankful and blast for that Vadhani still I really don’t want any of man coming generation to be there and to realise all these things because I am really really really unhappy if all these things happens with me a yes I really want to go out travel and have some good time and be there and do good and I don’t know what’s going to happen next but I really want to be the best Indian enik anyhow Mahesh to the best that I can today Naav Prema and religious the last two things to 3 things like I really want to work life balance in my life I don’t know why it happens all the time but I really make out away because I am learning atomic habits I have learned a lot of 78 books I have read them so I am really gonna just make data Best of this time and anyhow any matter any way possible because it’s really gonna piss piss me off otherwise if it doesn’t happen like that way I always wanted to be I really wanted to be doing things on time and really want to have a worklife balance I really want to have a good family friends and get together this data always really wanted I really wanted to live in Mumbai alone guess these are the things some of the time that I really feel waking up the time never wanted to do something that I don’t like going there every single day

Some of the times I don’t know why the script comes in my mind that this is happening because I’m very emotional mental stupid person and because all the time this happens because I have a very bad relationship and everybody hates me Aana gaantake psycho mental person that’s why I gone into depression and Devdas chennagiruva Ke movies always making me feel like that I am not able to do anything I’m not worth it I am I am really up very bad person nobody really wants to live with me I’m not that likeable percent I am kind of a psycho stupid so I need to change myself days dad and lot of 10,000 things that are really not cool so yes I really want to change that live a good life and be the best version of myself