THE LEVEL OF FRUSTRATION

 As I grew up I have always seen that ky family is broken and people are together when only it is required I always wanted To make my family proud hustling here and there it's always my way to see things I feel If I am a doctor or any profession that earns the most is making the family together and forever but not in our case mt fakily totally broke af Nobody loves anyone none is so happy as they not not internally for any other person as it seems like .

I kinda feel I am lucky to have my Sister  and Mom.

I always felt that my family cousin we are all happy suppy and fun.

But the thing is that bachpan se aab tak it's a competition  and race that kept me going without enjoying things like  The way I speak as a child beauty Standards being the best toys, gadgets and coming 1 in my class to be able to match all this I keep on hustling every day.

To like my older cousin who in pic seems like loves me happy with me looking up to her to be a poised,powerful,rich and demand beautiful  kinda of a girl but No I was not my family is not that well todo to match the stand dars and I have to keep working hard for that my Mark's,job are always the smaller than everything that I can is very very small for everyone out there because  she is the Queen and she keeps on ruling .

In my family I am the Emo Fool nobody loves anyone waits for anyone have time for anyone or even try to be a person who connects all All are fake unhappy and ruthless.

Nobody  gives a damn important  other than showing Dake lovevto others it's very very annoying  for me to always hustling and being on Top I know I am totally ambitious  ,I need money ,power and fake but earlier I need my each member of family to be proud on me but now I dont give a fuck I know nothing without the family but At times I ve realises you have to build and empire that you must trust on and shine on fir your children and create a legacy .

I was attached to each member  of this family I dont know how things work what to do to match their feelings their standard and to have people in my life .

As The new year is around The corner I am taking a pledge to always not attached to anyone at any cost it's just me and only me none except me can help me more than I myself becbause I realise it's just not working like its has to I have never expected me to be the  way  I am 23 year old today but it's just the way it is the betrayal the not so happy people not so accomplish people and not so good people to feel I am blessed because no one is with me NO ONE LOVES ME ITS JUST MY MYTH TO MAKE MYSELF PROUD, ITS JUST because  my wishes and Intentions.

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