A LifeTime Kinda DAY

 hey there,

This is Ayushi Sharma and you are here just to know about my secret diary so yeah I never thought I would start teaching but then I started doing for no reason as by Mascot and then B.Sc student and then Now Lifetime like a MBBS student I am so not sure what is gonna happen but this is really something  that we can go on and on  with to you know trigger my fear .

Well 1 March was that day I was totally terrified  and scared and nervous to what's gonna happen then so Then I saw that  the things are really very scaring now because I never ever choose or in my life  taught or even interacted with  a MBBS student a private college ones as I am always fond of because it was very terrible .

I was having some anxiety issues and all My life is now literally changed from this as I am totally 

Up to this game  of not a person who fears from public  the life is so hectic and I am so so nervous so as soon I enter the auditorium  my heart was beating fast and fast and I could hear my heart in my ears like a DJ so then I started saying please settle down, be quiet and be silent but no one was listening I believe I have this amazing thing that I  started talking in english interact asked there name and they were telling and shouting like anything And seriously  I was enjoying it thoroughly because I WAS NOT PAID FOR THIS AND NEITHER I AM THERE FOR THEIR CAREER IT IS JUST MY JOB which I have to do.

So it was really really Bad and I was talking I was confident and I was delivering myself and it was really really scary at some point of time but I somehow maintain it to be that way and enjoyed a lot 

Also time was over  I know I was not that good and impactful  about my voice and about my content .

This is that only My only way to that is when I feel the intensity I was bad and ugly but they were testing me ,controlling  me but me being me trying to have a lovable convo with them and appears as a badass In front of them as they were woohing,clapping,annoying,saying the time is over I maintain to be the same till the last part and it was somehow I caught it and maintain myself on the VERY FIRST day and it was always a memorable one 1 MARCH2021 The only way I behaved and managed things  It was really a big opportunity  I cannot  let that go  and  I just don't want to cry,annoyed and leave a class but to prove I am the one and the  hybrid of bold and fierce like kangana and priyanka 

Hoping and praying for the Best in future will work better and the best







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