30April2023

 Dear Diary,

Its 30April2023 I am feeling very I don’t know my diary I am what I’m feeling bad this is Shelly really been stupid of me I don’t know why I have been like that since childhood I would like nobody in this world I have to share to speak and to say Nota man not friends not family Nu want some writing this to you because I don’t know what else to do I don’t have anyone to express my feeling very agitated very irritated I don’t know why is this I am always been that three words on love socialising going out and living the life being talk of the town talking to people but I don’t know what and how this kind of person has become I have always been that MB or not the intro Varna day near the bad person and always wanted to do best in my life it’s really very difficult and very different to understand what is happening to me wrong I have become this very ruthless irritated and nonsense person I’m feeling really bad right now diary that I could not be able to buy the 20,000 ring I’m not able to go for flight I don’t know how to manage money what to do how to do when to do inside looking inside and being in the home feels me really bad I don’t know whom to say my mother does not understand my sister is not she’s just always inside her self I don’t know what’s happening to her she’ll never explain to me and not even a don’t know how to explain and say I always inside me feeling very suffocated alone lonely and very very different like a do not have somebody decide on via think about so many things being like overthink not motivated not focusing on what to do the cab tried so many time I don’t know what’s up Nede something wrong in something is there something is missing Ane to focus hundred percent go out from this place in city and just live my life the way I wanted I don’t know how to go out how to runway how to do things Ki Na Hai back for the love for the family for the help and every thing and every thing just disappeared nobody want to see anybody is feels weird just very irritated of each other we don’t want anyone else Piya so so so fucked up and I don’t want to do this job only I am do next of the money I’m doing my job just for the money in that case menu happiness nothing I don’t want to do this I don’t want to live where is new luxury I know I have family Enu I don’t know what is happening there is new piece only this negativity nothing is there in my mind it’s just I am not Home Seca don’t want to live with my parents I just want to take care but right now I don’t know what to do how to do invented a VN like Hao have to do there is nothing going on in my mind brain is actually not working in the best way possible very very fucked up very very fucked up I don’t know how to start what to say when to do I have wasted all mate ending nothing and I don’t want to do anything I don’t know I don’t want to live in this house why I was crying to race leave this house and do I really want to go somewhere else that was always in my mind nothing else dreams always be really want to go out and live 

Universe if you are listening to me universe if you’re listening to me University are listening to me I am affirming that I am living in Mumbai living the best life as an actor as established actor having a peace in my mind having everything that I wanted nothing to rely on and just so much peace satisfaction happiness is there always and always and always nothing like Boddam agitated frustrated or just so bad feeling thank you

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