Quarantine series

 Hello dear diary and never to dial came across Rewa again pictures wanted to tell you some few things that I really felt like telling you now as I fell when I’m turning 20 612 months ago I really feel very different like life is actually different for me also very important things It’s keep going new people were there in your life you left out within it maybe like so many people like now I have no friends my siblings are also not very close to me but their main Chachu is like everything to me I always always always and always being the word Humein Aaye always felt like asking us so many things Nuwan cribbing the day always had was why we do not have money via video nodabeku house and everything will be solved but Nu it was my Man Tan I always thought that when I am when a medal table to every thing Omme family Anna and I’m like 2122 ultra I too give my family all the money and things that I always cry but when I was childhood so this was my theme but you know when you grow up you realise so many things that your family nature everyone is different there is new friends there always saying not good things to you everyone is Hafte Johnny nobody is like close to you as you thought that they will be and I always entertain people to like me to like my company to like to cut my doing but I’ve stopped that like since 67 months advance want to entertain people I don’t want to go somewhere else I am not a people’s percent these days and Gwen like have a lot of friends are Leo back then but now I am not a peoples person I do not like a lot of friends I do not want a lot of things to be happening just beside me I don’t want people to be Delhi Nu I just wanted to be on their new interview saying that I better learn for my Sachdeva days I was having dairy ice David days I was having a lot of sadness Deva days where I was not able to get up and have any kind of motivational things were like so drastic and brutal for me and never thought that I would be able to get up and do something for myself but being that stage and every study and not do a lot of things in this that yes I do want to research new a lot of things I had kareyo city Bade Bade all the creativity in creole city is going like far away I have no idea I really wanted to explore world go out meet people know the perspective of rich people know what I have always wanted is becoming true in front of me but when you see your dreams not getting true and whatever the timeline you have decided a maybe not a timeline of decided then still you’re not in that zone even when you wanted your life to be and you are doing something different every day crazy Ya waking up not motivated not love not food and travel gives you happiness you know when I was travelling and if I can afford every thing because I have money and travel I can go ahead and Tharagani whatever I want I can buy anything nothing is giving me happiness because my dreams are not getting real I am not able to do what I really want it for me and my family that really is saddening part when I go to my bed I have new am nothing like accomplishment Na nothing like productivity I always paid Laga what a man doing if I have a lot of money than what I’m a mess what what were my dreams I always Vel lagel I would’ve been like one of the people all my friends or something like that life settle down get married has kids taking care of them dust but that also is not me and never thought of being that girl voice being in the kitchen working I am not against those people were doing with Devil and never want to do these things and because I do not have any evil I thought if I become that person also I will be not doing justice to that person and to my kids as well so yeah that was very different and very weird feeling like very different always wanted to be a follower for my family if people and children’s around me but they don’t know what the sadness I’ve been part of you know maybe my system and I don’t want to make a decision in my family my parents to my mom because mom is always been very saddened by my age by what am I doing what I am a clans favours were ready to coming back in crying and hold not talking to Mom not eating Enu saying things to them and when I’m travelling old am crying crying crying Enu Samantha police officer came to a new console me Anandam People on Neenu while travelling in the Janani De consoled me know madam this happened don’t worry don’t you know where that is sad in the circle lot of failure is a new new rejections I faced a lot I would say what I thought I was not meant for them they were not phone me and I am really wanted something else and maybe I am not attempt by hundred percent Darren Reeza Samundar some of the real or you know where that is sad in the circle lot of failure is a new new rejections I faced a lot I would say what I thought I was not meant for them they were not phone me and I am really want something else and maybe I am not attempt by hundred percent Darren Reeza Samantha Hilda always feel that I was not being there and I was not doing what I really want it but I am never lose never ever I am I get up motivate myself and Cone La wanted that I really don’t want to be a new generalised I don’t want you coming this word into thanks and have money and then go on and in the evening no I want people to recognise me that I’ve done something Di Nomi they think that oh she has done a Gandu Nana want to inspire follow to my parents to my siblings do my family to Main menu to Dhruv done something that they can also do I really wanted to create something have something my imagination every thing ever so lot of things that come into my mind but I never overcome that those feelings to my mind because I always saw that this is all temporary this is all temporary I’m gonna get where I always wanted to win I never lose hope night never if I was on Veena play cum lakh really sad and do not want to get up from my bed I make sure that I do daily things that I have ticked from Abke list and like their time down nobody around vilik new one I was just talking to my diary rest talking to my blog just talking to myself having things I buy myself but there was no happiness in festival‘s birthday is nothing I came to that point of time in my life I know I don’t Vayasu sings I’m Loda Vadha Sakde like that till now maybe in future but yeah that was I don’t know what was that phase out College struggle I would call it bedtime 19 would rather be experience Neenu mindful Sai would call I would Na Aana like to call it as Lovely because they it has taught me a lot and never knew so many things about myself but I know and I know so many things that I would like to give to the next generation never help them to complete all of their toes things really helps them thank you thank you thank universe call Amazon Woodley Ava is very very Pokémon law for traction since 2021 and us find me Olaf direction will work and this is going to be like this and that I said watching videos boost their thoughts and it create a lot of Hazar were watching a lot of videos do story some other people success stories rent Lagana don’t know what I was going through a bozo finding where I would get peace in about go to religious places of go to temples I would Kothur Gurudwara just get please but it was not there inside me how could I find it outside I would not be able to find a nip it going travelling may be eaten going to religious places like Asad reading books but really reading books to really help me man changing my perspective a lot and a lot of things like talking to people days that you know nothing was making me happy I didn’t change my WhatsApp profile since like three years I was in that phase and in that profession nothing help me nothing was attracting me nothing I was finding nothing very fascinating I was very dull and never put Kajal Layi new house that girl I used to put Kajal Layi nice to get up and go there Faisal Er Naav is always do these things but now there is no motivation I don’t know what I was looking for a beginner old lady just who just not have the grey hair but still become old lady like I don’t know what was happening to me and that part one really got out of that I’m really happy and now I am hero Kiven this interview gotten this officer job and I’m really happy that that Monu Tony that I was in a break  broke that out and This happy face life is fast life or dash lowlife on mountains win between that nothing so thank you thank you thank you God and everyone around who have actually wished for me who actually wanted good thing for me to make this happen thank you so much