SteadySecretdiary: Hey there,Never thought of days would take us li...

SteadySecretdiary: Hey there,

Never thought of days would take us li...
: Hey there, Never thought of days would take us like this but these days are like the not so what to say its been 9 months coming back fro...anted it is so cruel to have this kind of Act God.

To the Lockdown with Fear, negativity, Feeling lonely and a big Epidemic
has taken over the world by a strom Right now I didnt Know about My New
job My mumbai tour my B.Ed Exams it all seems so disappointed to me Its
all making me nervous than and I was earlier I feel like in march  some
pause button is pressed just to be more clear about it.



I know I used to yell last year for my old movies,tiktoks way of proceed
in life to show my fellowmates  school and college specially relatives
and my long lost people that I am living the actual life that i wanted
always its my way to live now and earn money,fame and make it to a
different level

Its always achoice of mine to be back home but i worth it and i owe it in all terms.



I wanted to do it and earn it in the best way possible.The life I know I
keep on complaining all the tie but its always the way it is.

The POSITIVE PART as Birds chirping now, Pollution is less,Sky is blue,
trees are breathing,No expenditure ,NoMarket, No collegeTolerance, being
in house with family all month its the best and the only time i have in
my life.



Its always the way I want people to behave and positive thoughts are
many too but now mother earth is making us realise many thing to learn
respect give and take to our Nature and always care for it.

Because its the way the LifeCycle works these days.Goodvibes are with me
as I have learnt to love bird and plant give them water everday I can
Help needy people and love and respect others.

Hope for the good to come and make it more good now.





Monday, 9 March 2020






                                MOVING FORWARD

When I
decided  to move but I could not be able to do it because I was totally
deep broken because of  my cellphone and its storage  everything was
going away from my hand. I hated the people the functions and far away
from my friends.I stopped  living being happy and enjoying.
All of it was
not that good I am just getting towards my goal of theatre and act only
mu only dream and happy place  and now I wat my family and money but
without any fault I lost my bag a big disaster in life.
My life is
quite good now but after new year which was not happy because from
december to march 7, 8 mishappening that has occured in my family that
was so worst and unhappy part of life.
 but moving
forward after loss of 15000 and 20000 salary deduction and fine of 10000
I am working my way hard to get success in my road to success .

A Beautiful new rise

Actually
it was a new part that my minchu got with an accident and life twisted
my life changes and  I wanted to be as entrepreneur saw my office and
home to chachu k ghr even in the case on my new education hub also the
day was awesome  it was sunday on 1 March 2020 dadi came home we ate all
day enjoy with family daddy chachu each of them was the way I saw them
15 years ago in kasganj before all bad happened the things were god and
best the mandir and mall wit daddy and shopping was best experience.
  

GIFTS TO MY FAM

From
the day I started earning i wanted to give a gift my mom and dad   then
my cousins and now chachu and dadi because eveything wasso new and in
between I hated them but now love them actually due to some cases i
hated them alot they were so bad but now they are the best I believe to
gve them gifts and spent my money on them not because I am selfish but
due to some of their attitude but all is well that ends well  the life
if great on holi this time but missed the bag only sososo much  I will
gift them all soon because I missed my mom dad 25 The Bigday which was
soso lame.I never bought anything to anybody but now its my time and the
right time.
I love my family and my loved friends who are with me in every day even when I was disappeared.




MY MOBILE PHONE  GETTING OUT OF REACH 

 So
As  I was very very excited for my last uncles wedding that was the
last wedding after which my generation is going to start  So with allt
the pallozoos asking everyone getting stiched new suits new blouses
jewellery  and my Garara fever is on and on.
My life was at the
the best running college market everyday going to tailor  shopping and
having fun parlour for my getup everything was fab we were about to
leave with our car but last moment plan changes  my dad was the happiest
they left one day before the wedding  and went to the same  day  with
all the tiredness rush and everything.
I dont know how
but  I lost my  bag all instructions by mom and my bro we were running
all around and loat my BAG having my precious cellphone
,golden mascara, charger, my foreever21 lipbalm , my nude lipstick and
my peach colour suit ,Minis Earring hoops golden pearl , mom shawl and
moms lipstick.
Even  after having my caprese never ever lost anything pin in delhi. 
but
that that was a black day I was stunned and cried 12 days and 24 hours
were rest less I didnot sleep eat the whole month properly was dreaming
of it each second blaming everyone around frustrated depressed and was
in bad condition no one was with me as i think no one is getting me
everything was so so so so bad nest day mom dad 25anniversary  and new
year was so so worst.
 




             THE TRAGEDY

In
year 2017 I had decided to move to delhi to study and start my
modelling carrer but intially preparing for many universities in delhi
Idid not took admission and things kept breaking I got into merit list
in meerut University and with less fees and everything I went into it
thought how I would survive but everything was just so awesome and I am
greatful to everything in life till date.
 but
then and there only I used to make tiktoks,watch old movies and dance
and dreams of becoming a great actress nothing was bad till date except
my grades in some subject that was hard for me at that point of time.
 Never lost anything except a waterbottle, a scarf my lipbalm and a 500 rupee note with everything kept so precisely and accurately but you know nothing is as easy you see it.
I
always thought just to go away from there the hostel the friends the
love and the environment but everything i see was worth of living.
because my vision was Mumbai always because now I am too late.
Actually
my Plan are always  ready but only thing different is they don't work
the way I want them to work and that is absolutely disrupt for me.
 This
time I thought of leaving for home getting a good body, eat healthy,
sleep and with family all the time having good time and earn and
everything was gong same way i wanted actually and eventually.
Now,
coming home was a epic comeback after 2 years but i come in between
each and everyweek if I am free, the July to November was quite the
amazing time and expected ways
but.................................................................





Wednesday, 19 February 2020






Dear diary,



It's been long teri bean sunne pardesi ohh nono no I am not singing the
song  it's been so good that I am loving the way I want them to but
lately 1 month ago I was like feeling so bad from the start  of december
because whole time I lost the things that I always wanted to  but  it
never been do bad like that ki the december is going so so bad actually I
always used to be like bad everything bad bad life this that bla bla
even low salary but see how things eventually  are getting worse last
year Ihad my exams in december feeling like why , all this so bad but
when you see now they are worst the actual scenario my bag is lost just
because of the fact that I was not that good to be good to taken care of
randomly things got lost life sucks Monday 25 was lame then new year
using people all of this has to be on a point yo be things are giving
more and more importance even things are getting bad feel like crying
the whole month and even when it must not be too bad because I have the
best and the worst things happening  all I need is good

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